This New Soul

Although time-consuming and tedious, the act of restoring love, acceptance, gratitude, and patience not only for ourselves, but for those who walk through life with us is worth every ounce of our energy.

Who remembers the PBS show, This Old House? This show launched an entire genre in the entertainment industry for home improvement television. The host, Norm Abram, was meticulous, knowledgeable, and enthusiastic about sharing his talent for restoring old homes to their original beauty. Wikipedia describes Norm Abram as a master carpenter. He always did his research, he was not afraid to get his hands dirty, and each project was a labor of love. A little closer to home, my friend Sandy and her husband took on the respectful renovation of their turn of the century Victorian home. A project that took them 20 years to finish. Each time I drive by their home, I am amazed at their patience, skill, and devotion to such an enormous undertaking. It reminds me of another master carpenter that seeks to restore something more precious than a home. He desires to restore my soul. Jesus, the master carpenter, wants to help us in our respectful renovation – from the inside out.

In green pastures

he makes me lie down;

to still waters

he leads me;

he restores my soul.

Psalm 23: 2-3

As the pinnacle of creation, God made us in His likeness and image. Each of us has a beauty and a goodness that longs to shine. Unfortunately, life circumstances, past hurts, sin, and exhaustion can tarnish that beauty and dull the goodness. Psalm 23 v 2-3, states it is in green pastures and beside still waters that God restores our souls. These verses elicit images of rest, calm, and peace. If I use my imagination, I can smell the fresh air, hear the gentle flow of the creek, and feel the presence of Jesus. In this situation, I am choosing to rest in the Lord, to let Him gently renew my spirit, and recharge my battery. However, the true definition of restore is a much more active process. Mirriam Webster defines the word restore as – to bring back to or put back into a former or original state. Synonyms include: remodel, renovate, and repair.

Often the process of restoration involves destruction. Sandy described the fun in wielding hammers and mauls to tear out old plaster and lath walls. This demolition exposed old electrical wiring and a heating/cooling system that needed updating. Sometimes restoring our souls can happen in much of the same way. The walls must come down that keep us from letting the good into our lives. As these barriers come down, the lies that need replacing with truth are exposed. This process can give us the freedom to be ourselves for the first time in our lives. Instead of walls and barriers, we need proper boundaries, with gates. Gates that let the good in and the bad out. What walls can you replace with good boundaries and a sturdy gate? An excellent resource and guide for building these sorts of boundaries is: Boundaries: When to Say Yes, How to Say No to Take Control by Henry Cloud and John Townsend.

Other times, the restoration of our souls requires a bit more patience, gentleness, and time. Perhaps a specific relationship in your life or particular vice or sin needs the undivided attention of you and Jesus. We do not live in a vacuum, and therefore, our efforts affect the lives of those we love. These changes require us to use the delicate tools of prayer and love to make small, lasting changes. Instead of hammers and mauls, we use tiny picks and brushes to remove the layers of paint and grime caught up in the intricate parts of our lives. Although time-consuming and tedious, the act of restoring love, acceptance, gratitude, and patience for ourselves and in our relationships is worth every ounce of our energy. Who in your life deserves this gift? You, your spouse, a parent, a friend, a child?

Finally, restoration can be exhausting. Life can be exhausting. Luckily, God built in a beautiful space for our souls to restore. It is called Sunday. God rested on the Sabbath, why don’t we? I know this is almost impossible to consider, but try spending some time this week rearranging your schedule to free up your Sunday. I will concede there is work that is required regardless of the day, but just be sure you are not creating the excuse, “I have to do this” when with a little creativity, the task can move to another day. Experience this extraordinary gift. Use Sunday to refill your tank for the week. Visit family and friends, spend some time enjoying the outdoors, read a book, or host a Sunday potluck dinner. Ignore the laundry, yard work, and cleaning. Go to church. Take a nap. Monday comes soon enough.

Whatever part of your soul needs restoring, Jesus is there waiting to begin the work. He is patient, meticulous, and eager to get started. His tools include promptings from the Holy Spirit, honest friends to accompany you on the journey, perhaps a therapist or spiritual director, Sacred Scripture, the grace available in the sacraments, and most importantly, His love. Do not hesitate to use them all to let your beauty and goodness shine. Be assured, this process is not a fresh coat of paint to clean things up. It is the old, made new.

A special thank you to Sandy for sharing her insights and experience in the restoration of their home. The gift of her time and words were invaluable.

The Story in the Storm

This is our moment of choice; will we take hold of Jesus’ outstretched hand?

It was a typical hot and humid summer day. We headed out on the boat for an evening of family fun, fishing. It was no small task preparing the boat, the gear, the snacks and the extra clothes for the toddlers. It was all worth it when our oldest catches the first fish! While we celebrate, the gentle breeze picks up its intensity, the beautiful blue sky darkens to the north, and lightning flashes in the distance. Soon it is joined by low rumbles of thunder. We conclude the storm is going north and proceed to enjoy our evening; we had put in so much effort, and the fishing was bountiful. Before long, we were proven wrong, and the storm was upon us. We felt the electricity in the air, and the river became rough. Panic set in. We rushed to secure the gear, situate the boys and get ourselves safely back to shore.

In the Gospel of Matthew, chapter 14 verse 24, Jesus is on the shore. Peter is in a boat with the other disciples, and they are in distress. Jesus, their teacher, their friend, their Messiah walks out on the water to rescue them. However, their first reaction to His help is fear. Peter demands proof. “If it is you, Lord, command me to come to you on the water.” Jesus complies and calls to Peter, “Come.” Imagine Peter, stepping out of the boat, trusting Jesus, and walking on water. Think of a time when Jesus has called you out of your boat, you trusted Him, and the reward was His smile! Maybe you followed His lead in a difficult conversation, took a new job requiring you to move across the country, or took the risk to share your conversion story with a room full of strangers. His smile of delight shines like the sun. It warms us to our very souls, makes us feel invincible; as if we could walk on water! These moments of great consolation, the times we know God’s love is real, are such gifts on our spiritual journey. Cherish these moments, write them on your heart. Praise God for allowing you to experience His real and Holy Presence.

When Peter caught a glimpse of the storm he panicked. My heart aches for Peter as he begins to sink; he desperately calls to Jesus, “Lord, save me!” How many times has this been me? Begging Jesus, maybe demanding Jesus to save me. What storms cause you to turn your head and take your eyes off Jesus? The death of a loved one, the loss of your job, marital discord or distance in a relationship with a friend? Whatever it is, doubt, fear, shame, or darkness start to set into our souls. We begin to feel inadequate, unworthy, or unloved. Thankfully, Peter’s story does not end there, and neither does ours.

What does Jesus do? Jesus immediately stretches out His hand and catches Peter. Jesus hasn’t taken His eyes off Peter, nor does He take his eyes off us. He’s waiting for us to turn our eyes back to Him so He can rescue us with His mercy and love. This is our moment of choice; will we take hold of Jesus’s outstretched hand? Will we turn to Him in prayer, in praise, in adoration? Will we replace our panic with prayer; choose to hope instead of despair? Follow our Faith instead of letting fear lead the way? Peter chooses to rely on Jesus and gets back into the boat. He is once again in His Holy Presence. It is from this place of safety, trust, and love that Jesus begins His real work with Peter.

After saving Peter, Jesus wants to talk about it. “Oh, you of little faith. Why did you doubt?” Jesus asks us the same question. “Why do you doubt?” We can ask the Holy Spirit to lead us through the storm and to provide us the wisdom, strength, and courage to press on. It’s also an opportunity to root out the temptation that causes us to take our eyes off Jesus. Perhaps, like me, a lack of trust allows you to think you’re in control. Maybe pride permits you to believe you are walking on water all by yourself. Whatever pulls your eyes off Jesus, take His hand, and follow Him to the sacraments for healing. We find His true and Holy Presence in the Eucharist and reconciliation, the grace we need to change our focus from the storm to Him. Through the sacraments, our faith will grow, our love of Him will grow, and our trust in Him will grow. He continues to write His story on our souls.

Storms will come. It’s up to us to choose to grab hold of Jesus’s hand or get swept up in the storm. Peter chose to take Jesus’s hand; will you?

This article was recently published in the magazine Catholic Life by the Diocese of La Crosse.